sushi.
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23/09/88 =)
ntu ms yr 2.


1. laptop!
2. new bag.
3. new specs.
4. digicam.
5. some clothes. =)
6. PSP/DS lite
7. black frame sunglasses.
8. hp. sony K660i?
9. cap



1. Guitar
2. Knitting
3. Japanese
4. Tarot card reading
5. Sign language
6. Zhong guo jie




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diz will b a huh post. sth dat makes u all goes "wat happen?". bt nth happen. i'm alive n kickin. so dun worry abt mi.

i truly tink i m INSANE. da tings i doin. da thots i m havin. wat's wrong w mi?

i dun wan to quit coz of diz. bt den i dunno. i may. i may nt. i m STUPID if i quit coz of diz bt den mayb I M STUPID. sushi is alwaes stupid. since wen she's nt?

tmr marks her 6th mnth anniversary. @ pl. can u believe it? how do i survive thru? 6 mnths is soooooooooooooooooooooooooo bloody hell long. da tings i experienced. to b honest, if i haf another chance. i tink i wont join pl in da first place. i seriously dunno. more pain or more happy?

reached da pt of quitin AGAIN.

was tellin faiz one day go drink. bt den wait for him nid to wait till pay day.
so anybody wan go drink?
yes i haf cravin for vodka.
u wan say i m an alcoholic den fine i m one.
i jzu wan to DRINK. damn it.

i hate myself being such a realistic person. i cannt lie to myself i cannt fool myself. coz i noe i noe even tho i dun wan to noe i dun wish to noe i dun care if i noe or nt.

i m losin my appetite. if 2day my mama din ask mi go eat lunch 2gether i dun tink i wil lb havin any lunch. or meal. i juz dun haf da appetite. bt den i cannt tell my mama i dun haf da appetite coz i dun wan her to worry. dun wan her to worry for mi le. she worry enough. lk any seriously upsettin tings she wont noe. i look normal i look mayb happy. coz i acted it out. da last ting i wan is my family to worry. juz lk breakin up. i still can laugh @ hm da day he broke up w mi. wen jenn call mi i stil lcan laugh coz i accidentally hang up her call. da nxt day i can go work n act as if nth has happen. i can smile to da customers. i can crap w my colleagues. it looks lk juz a bloody normal day wen it is nt. i HATE myself being lk dat. being able to act normal wen it's nt.

kenny came n we tokin coz i @ dishup mahx. so he was sayin abt xiao li cang dao. den i was sayin i cannt b nice to da person dat i dun lk. den aft dat i say. actually i did bfore. bt it's juz so fkin tirin dat i gave up. i wont b evil bt i juz dun tok to u. minimum contact. mayb i m lyin. since i can act normal. i cfm can act thru da bloody long time. mayb juz now i m actin nice. i dunno.

life sux now n i m sinkin into depression. so long da last time i had been depressed.

can i juz cry lk a baby?

if only. mayb life now is 10thousand times better.

i hate myself.

bt den i m glad dat i met kisa durin my break. tho so brief yet she make my day seems better n sarah too. =) typin a =) make mi feel so fake.