one litre of tears.
♥ Wednesday, July 4, 2007 @ 12:18 AM
mayb coz my life is long. i spent diz few days killing myself. stay up late. n stuffs. i guess i nv cherish life da way aya did.
i shed definitely more dan 1litre of tears. mayb coz it's fr a true story. it seems so real. so sad. so touchin. i dun tink i will watch it agn coz it is juz plain so sad. cry n cry n cry n cry. tho nt dat bad as dat time i break up w irvin.
givin up sth dat is so impt to her. i guess. i nv really go get close to wateva coz i haf da fear of losin. really. da more i show unconcern da more i really care. juz lk as in u dun matter. u do. u really do. lil actions u did affected mi greatly. juz dat u duno.
i muz b strong. i muz b brave. wat i met is nth compared to her.
i duno y pple say da show is inspirin. lolx. i find it kinda upsettin. "i wan to help others" dat is wat i wan to do in da future to. wanted to study ot wanted to do sth meaningful. ended up i m studyin maritime. hmmmm. i guess it's business line? i m goin to b in? i guess ended up i will cause sufferings to others? i duno. i dun tink i helped anyone before. i aint tokin abt helpin to carry or to open da door or wateva. bt den really dat kind of wow help.
sth dat i rmb. mad mad. if u anyday find life is meaningless. find dat u dunno y u live for. tink of mi. i changed a lot thanks to u. n i really thankful for it coz i aint myself if dere's no u. so moody mayb dat's how i get my moody fr. lolx. can do crazy tings. can b q. upset. nahx. upset is wat i do. dat wat i did only in da past. u brought mi out of da box. my super thick firewall. i m more open now. all thanks to u. n w eunice dor n mayb even wei yi? lolx. i guess secondary days changed mi. really. thanks. =) so u r foreva impt to mi.
pple, life is short. everytin u can do has a limited time period. u can get high n ignore everytin @ sometimes u can b upset n cried @ sometimes. so do wat u feel is right. [dat xcludes killin pple or harmin pple okeix?] dun wait. dun stop. kip movin on. look in front n sometimes look @ da sky n relax~ =) u nv noe wen is da last time u can look @ da sky n c da beautiful clouds/stars. =)
mayb one day wen i really saw sth or met sth dat really makes mi go "i cannt wait anymore" i will do tings dat i alwaes wan to do.
my thots for one litre of tears r mixed up coz i watched transformers. -.- will blog next time wen i tink of more okeix? =)
i really miss u.
