
cried.
♥ Tuesday, August 14, 2007 @ 11:52 PM
2day started gd. really. gd. i wake up early. eat breakfast w my mama n dad n sis. went sch. get to meet up w kisa oso. bt den it juz suddenly deteoriates lk mad. wasnt feelin well alr. went to acct tut is lk shit. lolx. as in i udnerstand le. so i tnk it's ok. bt den i feel v lousy. went to meet kelly! =) she's one hu alwaes i find if i nid prac ans. lolx. anw. used com n realise symm n crystals r faaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaar more harder dan wat i tink. -.- so i m in total despair.
chi is hard. diz is hard. i dun wan myself to study sth v hard u c.
wanted to cry wen eatin dinner w kelly liao. lolx. den ren ren ren. cannt cry cannt cry. go hm cfm + chop cannt cry. ren ren ren. till cannt ren le. tears juz flow out @ 10+pm. shockin my sis. she ask mi wat happen i juz dun wan say. coz i juz cannt say. i will juz cry even more if i try to say. i noe myself.
i will tahan till da max. i will try to survive myself. den till cannt. i cannt share it w others. coz i wil juz start to cry n start to panic pple. i noe myself.
anw. so den stop agn coz i watchin tv la. 11pm go chiong into bathrm to bathe n cry n da same time as well. den tryin to console myself as well. so gt out of bathrm feelin relaxed coz i decided to take one mod less. i noe it's nt advisable coz 6 is alr v lil. n i m takin juz 5mod. bt den decided. will tok to kelly mel n i dunno hu abt it. den i tink i will jzu live w it. i juz take it up @ nxt sem only wat. wont die de. lolx.
sch is juz startin. i shld stop givin myself stress. da thot of how my sis survive thru saddens mi tho. it's lk dey breeze thru while i lk juz started n gt stuck. sickenin. i m juz alwaes da lousiest? i nid recfm myself agn n agn n agn n agn.
i wonder. do i alwaes appear lk v carefree? i dun tink so rite? lolx.
rollercoaster uni life. interestin huh? tmr french!!!!
bonjour! je m'applle shiling. lolx. sth lk dat. i 4gt abt da spellin. i juz rmb da pronounciation. french make mi happy! =) dat's wat i call as ELECTIVE. damn it.
started stirrin. =)
love as alwaes,
sushi. =)
i wan to dirnk bt i noe drinkin is bad. damn.